When I first found out about my ex Ryan's sex addiction I was never in denial, but I was in shock. He was a bible touting. quoting, Christian by day, and a lust filled, sex addict by night! More like an animal, than a servant of God, his lust consumed and controlled him. Not only did I find evidence of Ryan's sexual liaisons with hundreds of women and adolescent girls, I also found evidence involving a few men!
Never in my wildest dreams would I have thought someone I was involved with could live such a double life of sin. How could I know this man so well, and not know him at all? I thank God for His providence, showing me the facts, before I said "I do." You can read the entire story of God's mighty hand of mercy, grace, and love on our main website: WWW.SYNTHIAESTHER.COM / ADDICTION SUBTAB/ "FOOLISH PLEASURE, THE LOVE STORY OF A SEX ADDICT, HIS BETRAYAL AND CRIME."
My journey in life became my ministry, as I searched for answers to my perplexing, other worldly problems. God was with me in my learning process, to be sure. In the quest for knowledge I returned to college to take additional psychology courses. In my social psychology class I was taught by a Doctor of Psychology who had been in private practice for over 25 years. He had also been at one time a psychologist to our Navy men at sea, admitting many at sea for months at a time, resorted to homosexual relationships as an outlet of sexual pleasure. These men were supposed heterosexual husbands, fathers, brothers, and sons. Yet they lived a double life as lovers to other men when away at sea.
In grief I often thought about their wives at home. Waiting, longing for their loved ones to return, when life could resume and carry on like a "normal" family. Unfortunately, there is nothing normal about sex addiction, with chaos, abuse, and anger being very profuse among addicts. My father is a Navy war vet, and one of my friends a former Navy Seal. Homosexual activity was not on their agenda, nor do I think it is the norm for most men in the Navy.
But what about those who do cross sexual lust filled boundary lines? What is life like after one gives way to a life filled with sexually deviant perversion? I can assure you, the lust and sexual energy does not go away! In fact, without help and God's intervention life for those in bondage to sex live a very shattered dream, as their addiction becomes increasingly obsessive-compulsive. For futher reference stats and educational documentation concerning this fact please read: WWW.SYNTHIAESTHER.COM / ADDICTION SUBTAB/ "ADDICTION DEFINITION AND HYPOTHESIS."
God gives us such an example in the 19th chapter of Genesis concerning Sodom and Gomorrah. The area townsmen desired the visiting men Lot was housing (they were really God's angels), instead of Lot's virgin daughters! One can read in the bible in Genesis 19:5-29, "Where are the men who came to you tonight? Bring them out to us so that we can have sex with them." Lot states, "No, my friends. Don't do this wicked thing. Look, I have two daughters who have never slept with a man. Let me bring them out to you, and you can do what you like with them. But don't do anything to these men, for they have come under the protection of my roof."
The angels struck the crowd of men blind and eventually destroyed the city, saving Lot and a few family members out of the catastrophe that overthrew Sodom and Gomorrah. God is holy, and His love great, but His wraft against sin is firm.
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