By Synthia Esther
August 12, 2008
The word became flesh, Jesus Christ, and made His dwelling among us. He was in the world, and though the world was made through Him, the world did not recognize Him- John 1. As a born again Christian, I use to ponder in wonder how I could recognize God's providential voice working within my life. When personal decisions were to be made I would pray for God's guidance and direction. At times I'd have an impression within my Spirit that proved to be true. But I never relied on my "discerning impressions" as confirmation of truth. For how does one tell the difference between an impression and truly knowing God's will?
I use to think that it was impossible to know God's voice confirming His will, until the ordinary became extraordinary. Due to my brother's horrific death (reference story, "Died On The Fourth Of July" at: WWW.SYNTHIAESTHER.COM), and my past relationship with a predator sex addict, Ryan (reference story: "Foolish Pleasure, The Love Story Of A Sex Addict, His Betrayal And Crime" at: WWW.SYNTHIAESTHER.COM), my life changed suddenly and completely. My rock bottom experiences gave birth to a spiritual transformation I now refer to as "Reverse Ego". It was then I came to know the mystery of God as written in Ephesians 3.
- THE REVELATION -
For a brief time before the enlightening revelation, I tried to forget the past, stayed busy and moved on with my life. Nonetheless, I soon learned my past was a part of me not to be forgotten, but revered. For without the experience, I would remain who I was, instead of who God desired me to be. Ever growing, ever knowing His divine ways and Holy providence.
Such self introspection began as I sought solitude and silence. I turned off the television, no radio boomed, or computer hummed, as I began to seek God with all my heart, mind and soul. I limited my outside interests and distracting activities. I sought clarity and began to read voraciously. Knowledge and the word of God became my partner in life. Years later these habits are not panglossian in nature, but remain ingrained, steadfast and true. The planted seeds of God's word seem to take on a life of their own, watered and nurtured by God Himself.
Having been raised going to church as a child, many of the Bible verses I remembered, knew and loved. Though growing up I heard and believed in God's word, I wasn't enlightened and literally changed by His word. My mysterious spiritual revelation didn't occur over night, as it was and is more a process of assurance and growing dependence as God's mercy, grace and love became more self evident.
I had reached a point in my life that nothing else mattered but this singleness in purpose. The more my life became centered on the holy word of God, the more centered I became. Becoming more creative, intuitive and discerning became the norm. Even my dreams have changed as I have had visions of prophetic truths.
I realized a transformation from the inside out. Dwelling in the word I didn't have to seek signs and wonders, as I was living them. My entire life has been guided by the Holy Spirit. My trials and triumphs have become my stepping stones to a greater reality, an unexplainable divine purpose and plan. The mysterious becomes common place, as the world is tuned out by living within the silence of the moment. Emotions no longer rule my life, as God's word rules my heart, mind and soul. Even when grief and sorrow does ensue, the return to God's everlasting peace, joy, and happiness is ever near. I live and bask in God's inspiration, with unspeakable peace and joy ever near.
- THE MYSTERY OF GOD -
"I will give them singleness of heart and action, so that they will always fear me for their own good and the good of their children after them. I will make an everlasting covenant with them: I will never stop doing good to them, and I will inspire them to fear me, so that they will never turn away from me. I will rejoice in doing them good and will assuredly plant them in this land with all my heart and soul" - Jeremiah 32:39-41.
"No, we speak of God's secret wisdom, a wisdom that has been hidden and that God destined for our glory before time began" - 1st Corinthians 2:7.
"...the mystery that has been kept hidden for ages and generations, but is now disclosed to the saints. To them God has chosen to make known among the Gentiles the glorious riches of this mystery, which is Christ in you, the hope of glory" - Colossians 1:26-27.
"My purpose is that they may be encouraged in heart and united in love, so that they may have the full riches of complete understanding, in order that they may know the mystery of God, namely, Christ, in whom are hidden all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge" - Colossians 2:2-3.
"The spirit searches all things, even the deep things of God. For who among men knows the thoughts of a man except the man's spirit within him?" - 1st Corinthians 2:10-11.
"Now to Him who is able to establish you by my gospel and the proclamation of Jesus Christ, according to the revelation of the mystery hidden for long ages past, but now revealed and made known through the profectic writings by the command of the eternal God, so that all nations might believe and obey Him" - Romans 16:25-26.
- SEEK GOD'S VOICE OF WISDOM, KNOWLEDGE AND UNDERSTANDING -
Seek the Lord while He may be found. Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and shun evil - Proverbs 2:7. Live your life in sacred pursuit of God's word, for in it you will find wisdom, knowledge, and understanding - Proverbs chapter 2 and 3.
Strive to show love where there is hate, to understand rather than to be understood - Corinthians 13. For the mystery of God and His ways begins and ends with His love - John 3:16.
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